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sooooooo yeah i aint been on here for ages coz i aint had time and had to much shit to write about really. well main things that are happenin-

i got into uni and start on the 18th of this month ie. sunday

um i get my tattoo 2moz which should be interesting my mums commin with me to hold my hand how sweet

um what else has happend lots of shit stuff has happened which aint worth talking bout

oh yeah i went to leeds festival by myself that was fucking ace had a well good time and now a wanted criminal in leeds which is quite funny.

yeah thats about it oh il be in the exeter inn on friday for my so called leaving party so may c u there!!!

hello chad how r u? im writing to you coz you said you wanted me to. what you been up to?



to everyone else who reads my journal this weekend has been shit lots of people letting me down which really pisses me off. photshoot went cool and the pictures look good. um i dnt really know what else to say. missing scott is doing my head in. parents are driving me crazy

well im pretty gutted. my mum has now decided i cant go see avenged severnfold because i would mean that i wont be at home for the morning of my birthday which is shit. so im guuted like a fish. im goin white lion on friday to c cool horse and got phtoshoot all day sat and evening then on sunday the biys are picking me up and taking me to the pub which should be ace. im missing scott loadz which is really shit and really getting to me .

at the mo life is good yay. goin leeds yay maybe a7x yay.

this weekend was pretty shit. all i did was work and clean the house up after my sister. i had chinese for dinner or saturday and also for breakfast, lunch and dinner on sunday so im pretty bored of chinese now. 2day at college has been quite fun went town to buy props for my photoshoot on saturday and sunday. today im bk in black which is great but it is quite hot coz its really sunny. im goin to white lion on friday to watch cool horse which will be ace. i need to know if anyone i know has my space if so whats ur addresse.

so the me and scott are over. it was nothing to do with me it was all his choice. quite upset but il get over it. got my leeds ticket the other day so that should be cool. i have been convinced to wear a bit more colour which is quite fun.

well not much is happening at the moment i am missing scott like crazy and i really want him here. i have never felt this lonely in my whole life. he rang me the other day to tell me that there had been a tornado and earthquake the other day which scared me abit. i went pub on friday which was fun and nice to see evryone. have been feeling really ill laterly and i think its got a lot to do with missing scott. on wednesday im goin to exeter with my mum which might be fun and friday im doin a photoshoot. im dressing my sis and her bf up and doin a remake of romeo and juliet which should be good.

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Claire
Birthday:	27 may 1987
Current Location:	braunton
Eye Color:	um brown green blue yellow
Hair Color:	currently blonde black pink and shitty blue
Height:	5 8 ish
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Your Heritage:	english
The Shoes You Wore Today:	converses
Your Weakness:	exams
Your Fears:	being alone
Your Perfect Pizza:	ham and mushroom
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	pass exams and get to uni
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	hey
Thoughts First Waking Up:	music
Your Best Physical Feature:	tummy
Your Bedtime:	10 30 ish
Your Most Missed Memory:	gigs iv been to
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	mcdonalds
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	none
Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	none
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	yes
Do you Sing:	try
Do you Shower Daily:	yes
Have you Been in Love:	yes
Do you want to go to College:	i am at college
Do you want to get Married:	yes
Do you belive in yourself:	no
Do you get Motion Sickness:	sometimes
Do you think you are Attractive:	no
Are you a Health Freak:	no
Do you get along with your Parents:	sometimes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	yes
Do you play an Instrument:	yes
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	yes
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	yes
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	no
How do you want to Die:	in my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	a music video directer
What country would you most like to Visit:	canada
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	blue
Favourite Hair Color:	black
Short or Long Hair:	medium
Height:	taller than me
Weight:	dnt mind but not to much
Best Clothing Style:	punk
Number of Drugs I have taken:	3
Number of CDs I own:	millions
Number of Piercings:	none
Number of Tattoos:	none
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so scott is currently in LA and its driving me round the bend. i hadnt spocken to him for like a week and then he rings me on a free phone line so it wouldnt cost a penny and he just says hes fine then hangs up. he just seems to b acting really strange and then i started to think of different things that could be wrong.
1. he could miss me but if he did surely he would of spocken to me for longer.
2. he was really busy coz it was 1 in the afternoon for him. but i checked the weather report and it was raining with no surf.
0r 3. he s done something stupid or cheaten on me which was cleverly pointed out by some of my friends. so i have now spent the last couple of days totally depressed.
i have hardly eaten for some reason and lost an awful amount of weight and now the whole of my rib cage is visible last night i tried on a pair of trousers that used to fit me perfect but now they fall straight to the floor and you could probably fit another person inside them aswell.iv also been really tired and goin to bed at like 8 and not waking up till 11. my breathing has got quite bad and im thinking i should do some exercise but i tried doing some running and nearly past out. so im thinking something is seriously wrong.
other things that have happend i went to the eccy on friday night for tom smiths birthday. robolint played and i bourght a dvd, t shirt and keyring all for £8 which i think is a bargain. today im goin town and up to college to do some extra work. and all the other days iv just been working.

um whats happened to me:
*got a U in media which was shit
*me and mum still at each others throats
*tech dnace 2moz night going as a dead avril lavigne
*went to c 18 visions last night which was ok
*had my hair cut
*had pink and black strip put in my hair
*weekend got very drunk at my mates 18th which was fun
*scott went to LA 2day so that sucks coz he s gone for 2 weeks
*really far behind in college work

thats about all really i ll be at the eccy on friday night for toms b day and robolint r playing so that will rule.

so 2day has been pretty shit my mum is still doing my head in. i got my exam result for media and failked it so that was shit. on the plus side i got my hair done and it looks REALLY cool. um going doctors for shitty breathing tests 2night which shall be fun!!!!!!!

friday i went to a 18th birthday party which was fun. got really drunk and made an ass of myself which was funny. then worked all weekend and scott came round on saturday night which was fun we watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind which was pretty good but really spinny

um life is bein abit shit again coz my dads mum is really ill and had a stroke so the family is all on edge again. got to go watch my sister jump up and down on a trampoline 2night which will be great fun!!! um not much else has happend and that s about it

yesterday had the best job ever at work CAKE TESTING was sooooooooo good and now i cant eat anymore cake.

last night went to scotts watched a scary film then went home and then went work 2day and now on here the end

p.s knee is alot better


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thanks to struan for your post it brightened up my day.

my knee is doing my head in coz my sis decided to hurt it so much that i cant currently walk. thats about all thats happened.

so yeah blink have split up i was really upset ta first but now im ok. its not like all their music and all my memories of seeing them will be erased. so i dnt care really its up to them what they do. hopefully now the side projects like transplants and box car racer will start up again which would be awsume.

no thanks to haley for the support today. yeah you find it funny but i didnt really. death thanks alot for rubbing it well and truly into my face. big thanks to charlie for bringing the subject bk up in photography that was really nice of you!

BIG thanks to mart for the nice message you left.

i also see that my best friend is back leaving me some loverly messages in their really sad unsigned way. in response to your comments-
* No i dnt want to buy a diary with my 'mass amounts of money' because i would class that as a waste of money. if you dnt want to read what i write on here then dont fucking read it. i have a live journal so that my friends that live far away can see what im up to.

* i dnt care if you dont like blink 182 your entitled to your own taste in music and know one should be able to influence you taste.

* i think the term 'depressed' is abit strong. if i was i wouldn't be on this earth any more. but im still here because i enjoy making you miserable by being present on this earth.
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um what else has happened. scott came over last night and we watche da film called 'city of god' which i thought was fucking amazing so i highly recommend it to everyone.

if anyone knows whats happening at the exeter inn on friday could you plz tell me.

yeah i think thats about it bye

BLINK IS OVER AND SO IS MY LIFE

LIFE IS SHIT